By: Walterene Jones
Last night, through many tears, stress, anxiety and frustration I kept saying, I’m really trying Lord, but I don’t know how. Each minute that passed, the harder I tried, the more the sobs came. The DVD player in the bedroom had stopped playing and the toilet seat in the master bath broke. It seemed like everything around me was breaking, light bulbs burning out, lamps that won’t work even after I change the bulb, one thing after another. Believe it or not, the garage door was even stuck!
I unhooked and took the non-working VCR/DVD player off and tried to connect an extra VCR/DVD player up that we had, but I couldn’t even get it to come on, much less play anything. The more I tried to fix things the harder I cried.
I’ve watched my husband for 30 years fix all sorts of things around our home and our cars. I knew I could call one of many of my brothers from my home Church, friends or neighbors and they would come and fix these things for me, but I was determined to do it myself, to learn and I was going to succeed in doing it. These days I seem to be speaking God’s promises a whole lot. Like, “Lord you promised me in Corinthians 10: 13 that you will not put more on me than I can bear, and I’m really trying Lord, but I don’t know how. It just isn’t working like I’ve always seen Steve do it. You are my husband now Lord, and as my husband I need, some guidance and some help to get these things done. Lord, you gave me this strong will and determination inside me, now I need some help to accomplish these things.
For 2 hours I tried to get the plastic nuts underneath the screws that hold on the toilet seat loose, it was like they were welded or super glued on and wouldn’t budge. Finally out of desperation and my determination, I wedged some pliers under the edge of that plastic screw and with every ounce of my strength I shattered those plastic screws, then it took me only 5 minutes to put the new seat on. I went back and went through the process again of hooking up the VCR/DVD Player and this time worked.
Lord, I miss him so much. I can only imagine him laying there laughing himself breathless watching me try to get that toilet seat off and getting more and more upset. Lord, fill this void in me that hurts so much.
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