Surrounding Me with LoveA little over two years have passed since my husband went to be with the Lord. My melt downs have decreased dramatically and I don’t cry myself to sleep anymore, but I still ask myself will the emptiness and loneliness ever go away?
About a month ago I had foot surgery and couldn’t put my
foot down on the ground for two weeks. I
found myself having to depend on my daughter and granddaughter to help me. This was the first time since Steve went to
be with the Lord that I’ve had a procedure performed and he wasn’t in the hospital waiting room waiting for me to get
out of surgery. Then following the
surgery not being able to get around and take care of even the small things for
myself made me feel totally hopeless.
compound matters, the past two weeks have been filled with one heart ache after
another. My late husband’s Uncle passed
away, then my friend Sis. Gladys passed away.
My son-in-law treated me horribly and it broke my heart. Then a week later my little dog Oscar passed
away. I found myself bursting into tears
again, feeling so alone. I started
asking God, “You know how much I hate being alone, why did you take Steve away
As I sat there and cried, my phone chirped. I received a text from a friend asking me to go out to eat with her. It was like God gently reached down and gave me a little shake. At the perfect time and moment I received that text and once again realized that while I come home to an empty house each evening, God has not left me alone. He has filled my life with Tremendous Pastors and a Wonderful Church Family. Just when I start feeling sorry for myself God brings them back into my focus and surrounds me with Love.
From the beginning of time, my Bible shows that the heart aches of Life happen to each of us. The Sun rises and sets each day only to have a new one begin the next morning and I know without a doubt that God is in Complete Control of all things and has a purpose and perfect plan for my life. Walterene