In a few days it will have been a year since my best friend and husband and I had our last conversation, last embrace and last “I Love You” before he aspirated and was taken into ICU and then the Lord took him home.
While I don’t cry myself to sleep every night now and don’t feel like a sharp burning sword has cut my whole heart out, and it is getting easier to make it through the days, I still miss him so much. I still will turn over during the night and reach over only to awaken and know he is not there or to have something wonderful happen to me and it will flash through my mind, I can’t wait to get home to share it with Steve, then I’ll remember he is not there.
This past year has been almost indescribable. God has showered me with his love, mercy, grace and provisions. Through each trial and hard time, he has provided for me and brought me through. He has been faithful each step of the way.
This morning I opened my email Word of the Day I receive and found this awesome word waiting for me…..
My comfort is your comfort. Sometimes
the comforts of the world seem to satisfy. But in the end, nothing satisfies
like Me. I designed and fashioned you. No one knows you like Me. And I have
placed a hole in your heart that only I can fill. You have the choice of
filling it with Me or with the substitutes the world has to offer. Your heart
or hearts tells you that only I can fully comfort you. Isn’t that exciting?
Yes, fall to your knees and thank Me for all I have done for you. Ask Me for
the things you need. My promises to you are forever. No one can break them. My
comfort is your comfort.
Psalms 119:77 “Now comfort me so I can live, really live; your revelation is the tune I dance to.” Ras Robinson